off the subject for a moment!!

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And yes very off the normal subject!!! :D

New Start

I am going to start keeping up with this!! I know there are many out there that have the same issues and that they are the only ones out there. Truthfully there are more then you would think.
I have recently moved into my own place (I have been living with my parents with my son) I am having a hard time dealing with the changes. I have been pushing my self to use the negative energy and thoughts I have into un packing and get my place into order so that I don't keep everything in boxes.
I have a really hard time to drastic changes like this. So Thankfully I have learned that it's better to keep busy even though I would rather just leave it the way it is!!
If anyone has tips let me know and I will try them and pass them on to others!!

hmm

I haven't posted anything for a while. My brain is full with randomness. I'm at a hard point right now. Not sure where I'm going or where I should go and where I have been. I thought this would help me a little but some of the things that are going on aren't things I can publicy speek about. One thing to know is to live in the now not in the past. I have a hard time with that but am getting better with it slowly. I have been having the urge to write so I will get some done and post what I can.

Holliday drag

I thought I would be able to to vent everything here during the Holidays. But that didn't work out to well for me. It has been a hard time. I am glad it is over but I am still in a Bah Humbug type of mood. Everyone seems so happy. A lot of people get Engaged. That has been hard. I haven't found that special someone. I know that it's best to work on my son and I but I still feel that emptiness that makes me feel very lonely even when I have so many people around me. I keep wondering when it will be my time but it never seems to happen. This is the first time I have let people know how I feel about this part of my life. Once again I am not looking for sympathy. This is how life is and how the card have been dealt.

hollidays

I am sure that I will be adding a lot this week. This week is the worst out of the year for me. It's a very lonely time. This year is harder then most due to my son being with his dad on Christmas eve to Christmas morning. Then it's dads weekend so I only have him for like 6 hours. Hopefully I can keep myself busy and list out some tips that can help to get past hard times.

This time of year is hard on most of us. I have had serious issues in years past. A year ago I was in the hospital due to my depression. That was the second time in one year. I was the one that decided I needed to go. I didn't hurt my self just had really bad thoughts and knew I needed to get help and fast. I am happy to say that I haven't had too hard of a time this last year. Although there has been allot going on this year I am actually doing better then I ever thought I would. I have been having some down points but seem able to snap out of them fast. I think it is good for people with depression to learn about what is going on with them and know there are resources out there to help them and that they need to take care of them selves. Also having a good support system helps allot. I have great support and that has helped immensely. If you are reading this and have any questions I am open to answer them. I want to help people out by letting them know it is ok to be deppressed and that it is best to get help.

Me

So I decided to finally start a blog. I wasn't sure what I would put on it. But I have figured out that I am going to talk about what it is like for me. Life with depression and being a single mom.

I don't want you to feel sorry for me. I have lived with this for a long time. Yes it has gotten worse over the years but I am still here and getting stronger.

I'm going to try to post exactly how I feel and not hide behind my mask. It may take time to let it all out.

I think that this may help me in the long run. To beable to be open with my self and others.

I also want to let people to know that not all people that are depressed are crazy!! There are actually very few that are what they portray in the movies.