Holliday drag

I thought I would be able to to vent everything here during the Holidays. But that didn't work out to well for me. It has been a hard time. I am glad it is over but I am still in a Bah Humbug type of mood. Everyone seems so happy. A lot of people get Engaged. That has been hard. I haven't found that special someone. I know that it's best to work on my son and I but I still feel that emptiness that makes me feel very lonely even when I have so many people around me. I keep wondering when it will be my time but it never seems to happen. This is the first time I have let people know how I feel about this part of my life. Once again I am not looking for sympathy. This is how life is and how the card have been dealt.